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Missing You Already

It's only been awhile since we parted because of the Christmas and New Year vacation but it seems like years to me already! I can't wait for January 4, 2009 to come. I want to be with you again. I want to be able to hug and kiss you. Spending my day without you is really hard and tedious. I don't think I can stand this.

I wish I had something to do that could distract all these overwhelming emotions that has been killing me. I wish the days would speed up so that I'll get to see you again. I could take days arguing with you. That would be better than being away from you. This feeling is not right.

I've got to see you!!!

Perfect Guy

An ideal guy is someone who:

• appreciates who you are and what you look like
• never hesitates to say sorry no matter who is wrong
• never insults you in in front of his friends
• says "i love you" in front of his friends
• holds your hand in public
• stares at you in the eyes when saying he loves you
• always checks you if you are okay
• forgives your stupidity
• calls you back when you hang up on him on the phone
• kisses your forehead
• wants to show you off to the whole world even if you are wearing baggy clothes
• constantly reminds you how much he cares about you
• makes you laugh and smile even when you don't want to
• always understands you and stops an argument
• tells you his future plans, which include you
• not ashamed to cry in front of you
• shows his weaknesses
• never looks at other girls
• never forgets anniversaries and other important dates
• very romantic
• doesn't have any "outside" activities
• never cheats
• often talks about the relationship
• very passionate
• sensible and affectionate
• responsible
• loves you, trusts you and believes in you no matter what people say...

I have definitely found my ideal guy and he's my boyfriend and my future husband, Geffy Lorenzo Fulay.

Goodluck in finding your own!

Hear Me Out

It's awful to be unheard. I want to shout to the whole world what I feel right now: anxiety, despair and nausea.

Is he thinking of me, too right now? Does he feel the same way that I do? Things are so complicated. Why are there people who want to destroy us? Can they not just mind their own lives? How pathetic. I smell jealousy...envy. (Sigh)

How can I explain to him that I love him more than my life and I will never do anything to ruin our special relationship? I can never blame him for doubting me. I know I have done many wrongs in the past and I regretted them all. I don't know how to prove to him that what I am saying is true. I could never love another guy the way I love him and no one would ever take his place.

I feel like vomiting because of the stress I'm in right now. I have never felt so helpless in my life. I cannot live without him. It's something I don't ever want to experience. I knew it from the start that we were meant to be.

Baby, if you happen to read this, please listen to me. Hear what I am saying. I love you and I will never do anything that might cause our breakup. Trust and believe in me.

I love your forever...you know that.

Addicted to Edward Cullen

Edward Cullen is so damn hot! I really liked the way R-Patz (Robert Pattinson) portrayed Twilight's ultimate vampire heartthrob. By the way, I only like Edward Cullen, not R-Patz he-heh. I mean, they're the same person but I like him better when he's acting as the vampire.

Anyways, I got to watch Twilight the movie and it was amazing. I was instantly hooked when Edward Cullen appeared for the first time on the screen in slow motion. I even held my breath! He looked really amazing! I also think he was hot when he and Bella (Kristen Stewart) got out of his car and they were seen by the whole school together. God! He was so handsome! The sunglasses worked for his pale skin.

You know what I thought after watching the movie? I wished that Edward Cullen was real hahahahahaha!!!! Silly of me. But yeah, I really wished he was real and not just a character in the books. It was a good love story. It made me tingly inside. Well, maybe because I think of myself as Bella hahaha. So so funny. But I guess I'm not the only one who thinks like that.

By the way, is it just me or do you guys also think that nobody cares about Bella? I mean, the craziness is all about Edward. What about Bella? Hmm...just a thought, though. I don't really mind. 

I'm looking forward to the sequel of Twilight, which is New Moon. I have already read the four books and they were great because of Edward hahahaha. He's a hottie. Seriously. =)